The Audacious Prayer




This past weekend, I attended a conference and so many fantastic things were shared by numerous people.  This was then capped off by a personal concert by Aaron Shust.

Just the week before, I was talking to a friend about what it really means to live for God.  I am familiar with phrases like "dying to self" and "giving it all to You".  However, the weight of such statements has just recently hit me square in the chest that is has knocked the wind out of me.  How so? Well, here is a story for illustration.

Ian and Larissa have shared an amazing story that points to God's glory through their blog.

To summarize for you, I am going to steal from the Overlapped Weblog.

"When people vow to love and cherish 'in sickness and in health', everyone hopes for 'sickness' to mean the usual yearly cold. When we hear of marriages that survive and continue after an accident or disability, it’s incredible and heart breaking at once.

"But Ian and Larissa began their marriage on those grounds. They’d been dating for 10 months in college and Ian was ring shopping when he was in a nearly fatal car crash. He had extensive brain damage. I’ve been reading their simple blog Pray for Ian for years, and he’s come so far. He can actually communicate with Larissa now, through words and not just blinking.

"But there are so, so many things he can’t yet do – like walk on his own – and maybe won’t ever be able to do.

"And they married anyway, years after the accident (which was in 2006 – they got married in 2010 or 2011, I think). They knew, fully, what they were getting into. And they’ve loved each other, praised God, grieved the disability, and been beautifully grateful – all through God’s grace. And they look forward to heaven more than anyone I know."

As a spectator to this story, I am just trying to pick up the pieces.  

I see love.  

I see pain.  

I see commitment.

I see beauty.

And I see WORSHIP!

Yes, I see that such a story brings about God's glory.  Ian could have decided to go ring shopping on a different day and the outcome would have been very different and much more traditional.  However, despite all these circumstances, God wins.  In fact, this is such a unique story that I am simply in awe of Him.  God has to be pretty amazing for Ian and Larissa to live a challenging story and yet praise Him all the way through it.  It is clear how their faith, in addition to the faiths of those around them and including their readers, have deepened...but at such a cost.  Is this what it means to "die to self" and to "give it all"?

In getting back to this conference and Aaron Shust, I have seen these words sung out in his latest album "This Is What We Believe".  At the conference, Aaron commented that this was his "In Awe of  God's Greatness" album.  There are numerous songs that contain language/lyrics that communicate the greatness of God and the subsequent impact on our lives.

It is clear that "giving it all" to Him does not shield us from the hurts of this world.  Aaron's own son, Michael, at the age of about 1 year old, had to undergo open-heart surgery just this past week.  His heart, which is supposed to be equipped with four aortic valves, somehow only had one.  Therefore, the blood was mixing together and therefore causing some complications.

As parents of this child and followers of the perfect Creator, how would you expect to respond to this?  I would expect with many questions and with many doubts as to "how perfect can He really be if my child comes into the world broken?"

However, their faith remains.  Incredible! How? It hardly makes sense.  The faith of Aaron and his wife, Sarah, go beyond  explanation.  However, one thing is for sure: their faith is beautiful and Aaron so poetically shares that in his latest album.

Anyway, Michael's surgery was last week and due to the timing of the surgery in relation to the conference, Aaron was not sure he was going to be able to leave the hospital and make it for the concert.  The result was that Michael's surgery fell into an eighth percentile, meaning that the doctor's estimate were about 1 in 12 for the surgery to be successful.  The results exceeded all expectations as the 4-hour surgery only took 2 hours and Michael was recently discharged home, much sooner than expected and at an alarming recovery rate.  

With this great news, Aaron now felt comfortable leaving his family and coming to the conference.  From my perspective, sitting in the audience, I was in complete amazement as I watched Aaron pour his soul into the Lord through song and worship, inviting us into each phrase, each chorus, each lyric. He commented that he just felt like he was in his living room playing on his piano and guitar, and we just happened to be there with him.  He rattled off some of his compositions, and then moved into traditional praise songs, and then swapped between the two for the next hour. You could sense the power that was in the room at this time and you could truly see how faith is so beautiful and how the Holy Spirit has truly touched Aaron's life.

So pop back out to my conversation just the week before this conference.  I was discussing the audacious prayer with a friend, and realizing what it truly meant to "die to self" and to "give it all".  This means loving God so much that we are ready to take on whatever circumstance to bring Him the greatest praise and to have the opportunity on earth to get a premature glimpse of the eternity to come.  This can come at great reward, and as illustrated in the above stories, can also come at great cost.  It is such a bold an audacious prayer to say, "God, you can do whatever you want with my life" when it means that there may be such a cost on your life.  However, such sacrifices will seem so small compared to the greater glory that will be experienced.  

In the end, it is an honor to be a part of the faith.  And I audaciously say, "God, have it your way, at whatever cost and at whatever reward so that Your glory can me maximized and so that I may know You as much as possible until the time that we meet face to face in eternity."